Traveling Back In Time...

Yesterday I was the ultimate bum! I slept in until 10:30a, showered and put on some sweats, watched t.v., movies, and played video games(I still have an original Nintendo). There was a point in the day when I deiced to make my way to the basement in search for a book to read. The basement is pretty well organized, all my things are on one side and Dorian's are on the other. While searching for a book I came across a box that read "Do not open" so of course I opened it(it was my hand writing anyway). As I began to open the box it occurred to me what was inside. Every journal I have ever written in from the age of 12. I picked up the journal with the duck tape all around it and knew what was written inside without even opening it. My missions trip to Mexico, Phase 2 back in 2002. After 2 hours in the basement and a nice spot on a rolled piece of carpet I had read through 5 journals with no end in site....Where those the books I was suppose to read? Was that the box I was meant to open, instead of the one that read "MMJ's Books"? As the day went on, I began to think about my life and what it was then and where it is now. Time goes by way to fast and sometimes in the process you either gain more of yourself or you lose yourself. After reading through those journals I realized I did lose a little part me, I have not yet decided whether what I lost was good or bad, only time will tell! But I know one thing for sure, whether good or bad, I am determined to find myself again this year, no matter what it takes!!!